My mind races...
at the worst time, 11pm, every night this week.
I blame it on Gilmore Girls. I made the mistake of watching the last two episodes right before bed a few days ago. Too much, too late. I didn't sleep for at least two hours. Lots of crying, lots of laughing, lots of mourning. And this scene, I just can't seem to stop replaying it in my head complete with the "la la la's". The end really was perfect. And how much do I love the Obama Gilmore tie? It's so meant to be.
But no, this isn't the only thing keeping me up. My irrational takes over my rational, and it doesn't stop until my body is just too exhausted to keep up.
2. Why do I always feel like I am being tailed living here. I don't drive slow, in fact I usually drive just above the speed limit. But there is ALWAYS a car just a few feet behind me.
3. How is it that I can exercise, sweat, drink gallons of water, and my body either gets bigger or stays the same? But the second I cut out refined sugars and flour, I finally see something change. It's so frustrating.
4. When am I not going to feel so isolated and lonely living here? and I'm still waiting for that moment, that "ah ha" when I know moving back was the right decision.
5. Is there a future for Rory and Logan? I have heard that if they were going to come back for an 8th season there was talk he might too. He really grew on me, and I was a Jess fan.
6. Death Cab for Cutie. They are coming out with a new album, which means they will be touring soon, which makes me really happy. I have a thing for Ben.
7. I have been struggling to figure out how to be the right kind of support to those I love. How do I provide hope to those that don't have any?
8. Another reason I can't wait for summer. I want to see a good movie!! Indiana Jones, Clone Wars, Batman, I have high hopes for all of you.
9. Why can't I seem to get going on teaching violin? I have really been procrastinating this. I guess I feel a little bit overwhelmed when I think about how much I have to do to get started. And let's be honest, I would rather sew.
10. And spring dresses. I have so many ideas, I just don't have patterns to make them. If I take this pattern, do this to it, alter it a little here, and there...I actually think about this all day, not just at night.
Surprisingly though, I get really tired in the middle of the day and have no problem sleeping when I should be doing a lot of these things.
Thursday, March 27, 2008 at 4:47AM
Reader Comments (10)
you moved back b/c of family right ;) well maybe a little. I think when tom comes back in a New to you Car and you are in a house, much bigger than before, where luke can play in the back yard, and you have another baby and you acutally have room for it, and your mom doesn't have to fly a million miles to help you, you may start the ah ha.
oh yeah and when you decide to paint in your new home you have Andy to help out. poor andy, I volunteer him for everything.
I feel bad that I have been so blah in planning fun activities. I am hoping something will click once the weather stays nice consistently. I am really happy you are here! I can't say that I blame you for feeling that way. I at times feel a little lonely and isolated with so many friends and family close by, I dunno. I think you need to pursue your talent for sewing. You truly do such a great job. You would think that you have been doing it your whole life.
That was weird, I know you didn't post that comment because I just typed it. You must have been logged into your typepad account on my computer, I promise I didn't hack in...
Now I know why I like you so much: Jess all the way.
it's always a good decision to be near family.
p.s. if i knew you could MAKE your own chocolate I would have insisted you lived with US while you were pregnant and homeless!
miss you!
spring is coming. everything gets better in the spring. and alysha, just being around you and luke brings happiness and hope to everyone. (and tom too).
i can't wait to see the dresses you're creating in your head- me and my fat swelling body with live vicariously through your fashion triumphs.
i love you and miss you daily, but i know you'll hit your stride over there soon!
i have never watched a gilmore girls episode all the way through. they talk really fast, so it sort of makes it unnatural for me. not to understand, just to listen. maybe i should give it a try, since so many people i know love it.
I love catching up on your blog- so many things that I can relate to. I never got into the gilmore girls and I know so many people who loved it, I may have to start with the first series. I loved your dress, I have that exact same fabric that I was wanted to make a shirt out of. And I found the perfect color of salt water sandals- it's a bone color off white/stone color nubuck.
I'm excited for #6 as well. They never disappoint. #8, RIP Heath, but I can't wait to see his portrayal as the Joker, I just hope it isn't too freaky. And I want to see Indiana Jones as well, but I am cautiously optimistic about that one. It could go either way. Be really good or be really bad. It's a shame that Indy won't and can't look the way he once did cause holy lunch sack he was so hot. #9, I wish I knew because hearing you play the violin these last couple weeks gearing up for the Smith Bro's dirt band concert and then hearing you on stage has been so fun. You are such a talent, and one that should in deed be teaching others. You have a gift girl and it's not just with making the perfect dress, which you do do #10.
I had to laugh when reading this post. I frequently suffer from the same sleep affliction. Just last night I was up until 3 a.m., my mind racing with ideas for jewelry designs, drawings, photos, etc. and all the inspiration I found in the many terrific blogs I spent several hours reading earlier that night. On more than one occasion I've fallen asleep very late on a work night and had the overwhelming urge to put my head down and nap on my jeweler's bench at work...almost dozed off once with a lit torch in my hand! As for the Gilmores, it was very hard to see them go last May, but the final season became just filler, after the creators of the show left the writing went downhill very quickly. What's the saying? The show finally jumped the shark and had to go. End of an era. I own all but the last season on DVD but can't bring myself to spend the dough on the last yet, don't know if I want to re-watch it, rather re-re-re-watch the early seasons with their clever writing.