Packing up
Last night I began packing up my stuff to head back to NY. This is probably my 12th time doing this, in the last 5 years, and I usually get a bit sad, but this time was different. In addition to packing my suitcase, I also gathered all of Luke's 12-18 month clothes and shoes and boxed them up to be left here, for hopefully the next baby. In my extremely hormonal mind, I couldn't help the emotions. Every time I say goodbye to another stage of clothes, I can't help but feel like I am losing a little more of my baby. My mind panicks and worries how much longer I have before Luke will move on from all of the things that daily frusterate me, aggravate me, but most often make me smile and laugh.
Before long, his sloppy signlanguage and the slurred few words he knows will be replaced with clear complete sentences. He won't be calling "Ma Ma" over and over again even after I have answered him over and over. Will he always do a dance when I ask him if he needs to have his diaper changed? Or turn down pizza and cupcakes for fruit and carrot sticks? Will I get a bit sad when he no longer tries to eat Addy's dog food, or offer me my own bite? The kisses he gives will eventually turn from open mouth to closed mouth, or maybe none will be given at all. Will he stop waving from across the room when he see someone he knows, or scream with excitement? When will I stop laughing when I have layed him down for a nap and have to put him back in his crib at least three times because he now climbs right out of it? His simple forms of entertainment (balls, doors, buttons) will need to replaced with video games and real toys. His clothes won't be as fun to fold, only because now they are just so small. He will stop taking out his binky just to say and sign "bumpa" (grandpa). When will he stop wanting his mom's silkies and binky when he needs comfort? Will he ever be easy to take anywhere when he isn't in a stroller? (that I am anxious for). And how long before he is officially out of baby clothes and into toddler clothes? I can barely stand the thought.....
Monday, October 15, 2007 at 8:18AM
Reader Comments (7)
Hello fellow haircut person. So sweet. Lily just got potty trained and I felt like a crazy person being so excited for my big girl and so sad once I realized we didn't need any more Huggies.
Okay stop already. The tears are rolling down the cheek. Isn't that the truth! They are so frustrating but you learn so much and love them even more through serving them continuously. I am sad you are gone. Thanks for coming by today. I hope to see you here permanantly. Next time, we could play the name game at chucky cheese and play while the kids are in the balls.
Oh sad! You look forward to new milestones in their lives and then when they pass you get sad. So we want more babies to go through it all over again!
So cute and tender...sounds like you need another baby.
That alone is the reason my girls still have clothes that fit 6 monthers in their drawers....Forget packing, just get a bigger dresser!! :)
I'm with you. I'm totally in denial that babies turn into toddlers and then kids. Mine are still babies in my mind though coming up on two and a half!
I didn't get to see you, but I did get to see Luke. we had a wonderful little trip around the block in the wagon together.
Aw. As I sit here trying to keep this same growing boy occupied I too get a bit emotional when thinking of him growing up. And as much as I want you to have another baby, and as you well know, I really really do, he or she will never be baby Lukey, so while the next baby will undoubtedly be adorable & have so many things we'll grow to love, little Lukey and his full mouth kisses will sadly grow up & learn real words & one day ask me to stop calling him "Lukey." I don't look forward to it. I say this as he is throwing himself on the floor in a fit of rage at not being able to go outside. Yet still, I love that little boy.